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I am alone…..I am not lonely. There is a difference.

I feel like lately a lot of people are asking me why I am single. At first I was kinda offended and it makes me feel like a loser. Its like asking a fat person why they are fat. Or a skinny person why they are skinny. I don’t need anyone pointing out the fact that I am single. I am well aware but I think I am a pretty good catch.Maybe I just don’t want to be caught. Am I the only one who feels like this? I sure hope not.

I guess the short answer is that I am scared. I have said this a million times but I don’t mind screwing up my own life but I would never want to screw up someone else’s. Especially if there are kids involved. I have been in some really good relationships in my life and suffered major heart break…..and this fuggin’ sucked so bad. I don’t think I am scared to be hurt, I think I am scared of hurting. There is something in my bones to where when times get tough I have no problem saying “Ok, that’s it!”….and then split. I cant describe it but its in me. And what if I was married and have kids? How could I do that to my family? Would I? I have no clue but I guess I don’t even want to have to find out the hard way. I guess the older that I get, the more I think. I don’t think 35 year old me thinks the same as 21 year old me but all I know is what I have done or experienced.

Do I just need to man up? I don’t want to date someone just to date them. I am NOT bored. I don’t want to dive into something unless there is immediate chemistry. Everyone, and I mean everyone thinks that I am picky but Fuk that! I have to be. I don’t want just anyone. I want the right one. When you know, you just know.

My favorite thing to tell people, especially my Mom is ” I am alone. I am not lonely. There is a difference.”

Please do not pity me. I am right where I need to be at this point in my life.

If you read this far, the highest of Fives!

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Did I just go on a date?

In my town they just finished construction on the new home of the San Francisco 49ers and let me tell you….The stadium is sick. Last Saturday they had the very first ever event there and I just had to go. It was for the San Jose Earthquakes soccer. Apparently its a professional team we have that I dont know about because I am not that Mexican. I didnt care what or who was going to be there but I couldnt miss it. I knew I wasnt going to watch the game but I was just going to wonder around and take pics….and drink beers. Mission accomplished. Its only about 10 minutes from my house but since I watch the news I knew it was going to be a straight up cluster fuck trying to get in that zoo. We parked across the street at a golf course. I had an extra ticket so I ended up selling it to my buddies friend and they met us in the parking lot while we tailgated. The chick that bought it was kinda semi cute but no real attraction. Did I just get set up on a blind date? Fuck, I hope not because I dont like that. We had discussed before the game that we both couldnt give a rats about the game and our goal was to drink and eat as much as possible. Done and done. That place was super expensive and I told her the $50 she owed me we would just spend on drinks anyways.

. Everyone pretty much got split up the second we got in the building. So we were in line at one point to get these sausage things that we saw everyone eating and I asked her “ohhh are you going to get the grilled onions and all that stuff” She says ” I don’t know because I feel like we are going to make out later”…..Ummm excuse me? Who do you think I am?……..I told her “well why don’t we just get it out of the way now so that way we can both get it with the onions and peppers, plus we don’t have to stand around like a bunch of 15 year old kids figuring out if we should kiss or not later”….So we shared a little smooch and we both laughed about it. I think it had a lot to do with my sponsor of the evening…..Coors light but that’s besides the point. I dragged her through the crowd by her hand and the rest of the night we joked about being on a date. Everything was like ” are we having our first fight?” or “I think we should break up”. Little stupid jokes like that but it was funny. The stadium shares a parking lot with an amusement park here in San Jose so by the end of the game there were fireworks. I joked and told her that now she can tell everyone she saw fireworks on our first date. hahahah………….Long story short I am pretty sure she thought I was gay. hahahahahahah. Fuckin’ bitch.

She was an esthetician and it came up that I wax my legs. She is going to judge me? She waxes peoples vagina’s and gunk holes and she wants to act like I’m weird?

Moral of the story is if they open a new stadium in your city don’t be called gay in it.

The Bachelorette- Week 2

Happy Monday everyone and I hope you all had a nice relaxing 3 day weekend. Thank you to all the men and women in the service fighting for us and their families. We appreciate it.

 
Before I get started I wanted to let everyone know that I will be on vacation next Monday and will not be giving you all my 2 cents. I am headed to San Diego to visit some family and then heading to Palm Springs for 3 days of golf. So stoked. Its by far my favorite thing to do all year……But wait! I have planned ahead. Since I wont be watching the show and talking shit I have asked someone to fill in for me. She shall remain nameless and you will just have to wait and see who it is. 
 
Ok, lets see what this bitch gets herself into this week……
 
So the guys are now in the mansion. It looks like a damn H&M model shoot.
 
Eric gets the first one on one date. Shit, this is hard. Tough knowing this guy looks happy but I know he is no longer with us….How sad.Kinda like watching the Tupac or Michael Jackson Hologram. 
 
Eric “whats this place called?”
Andi “This place is called the beach”
 
What a fuggin bitch. Obviously its the beach dummy but what are we doing here? (is what he should have said)
 
Oh snap! Andi is actually wearing a bikini….and wearing it well. Special note to the camera crew though when they are doing sand angels take it from a different angle where you are not all up in her V zone. Oh cool….a helicopter ride. How unexpected. Hopefully Eric never watched this show before because 9 times out of 10 you get to ride in a chopper. Not that special…..Oh…Louie vitto. Now that pretty cool. That kid is pretty dope.
 
I would like to go on record and say that thats NOT snowboarding! She was wearing snowboarding gear and standing with a board on her feet. Hot cocoa and sitting on a sled on more her style. 
 
Ok, I have caught on to Andi’s “thing”….She says “stop” a lot. Kinda like how when you tell a story and someone says ‘shut up”….They dont want you to shut up, they just mean ” Noooo Waaaaay”….Ya, she does that.
 
Fuck. Eric seems like a pretty good guy. Did I just hear him say he roasted marshmellows over a volcano? I think I would have a hard time being with someone that has done almost everything humanly possible. 
 
Group Date time. Lets bare our souls. Oh crap….here we go. Male exotic dancing? Uhhhhh gross. I wonder what else is on…..
 
Craig is annoying as ever. I dont like this guy. Is he always drunk?
My boy Chris the golfer is the gay robot. Haha. Classic. Nice thong homie Hahah.
Cody is a shit bag. Arrogant asshole. Yes we all know you work out. Fag.
Pretty sure Chris Harrison smacked one of the guys asses.
Why does Brian have a black eye? Did I miss something?
 
Glad that is over but I have a feeling I was the only one who did NOT enjoy that scene. I want to hear what you all thought….Bunch’a hoochies.
 
Damn. Andi looks hot in that black dress and when I say Andi I mean her boobs are pretty much calling my name. #FanOfTheBoobGlisten
 
Craig is obviously the town drunk and he is becoming fun to watch….Although I am sure he is going home very soon. Dude is ripped. haha. “whats the worst thing about your parents?” LMAO.hahahahaha. I am actually laughing and crying. How funny is that? I want to party with him kinda.
 
Get over it Andi. So he had too much to drink. Everyone is out of their element and alcohol helps people let loose. He just went to far….BUT We all know thats how he is all the time. She is taking it as a personal attack on her process to find true love on TV with 25 guys with a countless amount of money to spend. Because thats normal. I think she needs to have a few cocktails and re-fukin-lax herself……….
 
Well hopefully Chris has a nice date with her. So who does everyone think is the front runner so far?
 
Santa Anita horse track is fun. I have been there before. Its exciting even when you only bet a couple of bucks. How is Chris gonna come out looking like Pee Wee though? Ugh. I am not a fan of the bow tie. Let that trend go fellas. 
 
“You just kinda know, you know”….I couldnt have said it better myself old lady. 
 
Wait I thought Andi had one last surprise for Chris. Ummmm A private concert? Thats not a surprise. We all knew it was coming since it happens every season. WOW. the first kiss was the real surprise if you ask me. I didnt think that was going to happen. City lawyer and farmer scare me a bit. I dont think he could keep up with her life style. Curious to see how that pans out. I like his hair.
 
Sock puppets behind the couch…..Check please.
 
Ok, So I am about to let you all in on a secret. All of these guys are acting like perfect gentlemen because they havent slept with her yet. Thats what we do. This is why I dont like the Bachelorette as much as the Bachelor. The guys are playing to win. They are all there to beat the other guys. Andi is the first place trophy and its not as genuine as 1 guy and a bunch of women. Women are more honest. There, I said it…  
 
Breaking news: This just in. Craig cant sing for shit. Now back to our show.
 
Well FUCK! My guy Nick S. is out. Bye Bye $10. Shit.
 
Ok so I guess the Bachelorette is on twice next week. My replacement is going to have her work cut out for her. Haha. Nothing like a double header to get your feet wet. 
 
Another episode is come and gone and not too much excitement just yet. I can say that I am starting to like some of the dudes now. Usually I hate them all for at least 3-4 episodes but some of them are stepping it up. 
 
Who does everyone like so far? Who does everyone think is hot? Who do you see ending up with Andi? Is it too early?
 
I want to know so send some feedback when you cant. 
 
I hope everyone has a good night out there in internet land. Dont miss me too much next week.
 
 

The Bachelor-Week 7

I hope everyone had a nice long weekend….I sure did. I still kinda have the shakes from drinking too much but what else is new….

Damn! Is it already week 7? Time flies when you dont give a shit about Juan fuggin Pablo. I wonder what he can do this week to get on my nerves…..Lets find out, Shall we?

Welcome to Miami everyone. I’ve never been there but I am pretty sure I would be thrown out of Florida for having the most fun allowed there. Hey, Uncle Dave loves the kids but is it me or does Camilla have the most annoying voice ever? It like bothers me….ugh. But on the other hand Clare looks smoking hot still so I guess I will watch this episode.
JP. Kudos for buying the ladies bikinis. Best thing he has done for the male viewers this whole season.
By the way JP just said Sharleen “was an Oprah singer”…..I’m sorry what the fuck does that mean? Lost in translation once again bud….The bachelors don’t even need to be American born anymore you just need have a wide variety of vneck shirts in many bright colors. And why did Sharleen act like an idiot when she handed him the date card? I really like her hair though. In case people were not aware I love hair. I couldnt begin to tell you why. I think I should have been a hairstylist in another life but a straight one of course…Anyone needs a cut and color holler at your boy…….Ok ten minute clip of them kissing isnt needed. Thank you.
I do NOT like her red bikini thing. It looks good from the back and then the front is hella busy. I don’t understand her….She talks so much shit about him and how things arent working but when they are together she is all about him. Chalk that up to me not understanding women whatsoever. I kinda like her cream dress and I think she looks pretty tonight. god I hope they don’t kiss…..Crap, too late. I don’t get these two at all……I’m so over both of them. What an indecisive bitch…..Allow me to decide for you. GOOOOOO!
Nikki date- She is such a cutie but she is ready to shit herself. She seems soooo nervous to meet the family and Camilla. Its a little too soon if you ask me. Hope she doesnt choke. Holy Shit. Is that JP’s ex? She is hot! I wonder what he did to screw that relationship up. All you internet stalker find out for me. I need deet’s.
Nikki has got a smoking hot body. Note to self. If I ever hang out with a woman and her shirt is barely clinging to her boobs, take her to go play catch. How is her boobs not popping out left and right?  Tape? Glue? Whatever it is I wish there was less of it? Either was she is very pretty.
So Sharleen is going to quit and give up? Her saying she isn’t feeling it is a lie. I think the more she gets attached to him to more she is scared he wont pick her. She is this seasons “I’m going to bail before he lets me go” girl. And why the hell is she whispering? If I wanted to read a bunch of subtitles I would watch Juan Pablo’s interviews again. Spoiler alert Sharleen. We can still here even when you whisper. You ain’t Batman. Speak up bitch. JP has his hand all over her face like he is trying to Palm a basketball. Gross. Don’t touch everyone’s faces so much.
And now this fool is crying…This guy cries more than the ladies do. I’m not buying it homie.
Group Date- Bikini day. Everyone shut up and let me focus…sssshhhh
Chelsea. Oh, cool. You brought letters from your mom on the group date. Lets read them all.
Mom-2 Drink Max and keep your clothes on
Dad- Do the opposite of what your mom says. Hahaha.
Clares true colors are coming out. She is talking shit about Andi getting the rose. This is about to get ugly. Andi is killing that red dress. I approve for sure. I think I am attracted to all the girls except Renee at this point.  Anyone know who that dude is singing? I sure don’t just some cholo probably.
These bitches are being such bitches. They are seriously arguing about who paid for the suite? Who’s space is who’s? Get real people. They have to know that there is going to be mad jealousy and they should be friends after a certain amount of episodes.I am really struggling to find something to say this week. The only thing I am focused on is Nikkis bright pink dress. She looks amazing in it.
And begin the Awkward silence segment…10 seconds, 20 seconds, 30 seconds….We get it. Show something else now. Thank god Andi is walking up now because its making me uncomfortable and I’m not even there. I am at home in my “Pee-Yam-aahhs”.
And Chelsea is outta there. Poor thing. She didnt see that coming I dont think…I sure did. And here come the tears.
Sorry for the extremely boring recap I just wasnt feeling it this week. Its so much easier when all the girls are psycho and when there are more of them. Well with that being said next weeks double episode looks like its jammed full of crazy. I cant wait for that one.
Next week I will for sure get a good buzz going before I decide to write. I couldnt do it tonight. I am done drinking for the week. Blah.
Well I hope everyone has a fantastic week and I look forward to sending 2 next week.
Nighty Nite ya’ll

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